Observing that (by some miracle), he might actually be growing to like the beach, but knowing that verbalising this observation is not a good idea. I’m happy if we all just keep pretending I’m dragging him there against his will, if that’s what it takes. On this particular visit to the beach, after a swim in the ocean I went for my usual ‘treasure hunting’ walk along the sand. I was gone for quite a while, and when I returned – this is what I found. I couldn’t believe my eyes. This is the guy who hates sand.. The waves were huge – breaking right on the shore, and constantly threatening to engulf his sand sculpture. He protected it with his body at first, lying in the path of any encroaching waves and getting covered from head to toe in sand in the process. He didn’t appear to be phased by this, and I was gobsmacked. I wanted to point out that he had sand in his hair but I refrained, knowing it was best just to act as if nothing out of the ordinary was unfolding right before my eyes. If we hadn’t been the only two people on the whole beach, I’m sure I would have felt the urge to double check and make sure I had the right guy. Frustrated at so many missed photo opportunities. There have been way too many this week. Too slow to point the camera, wrong lens, wrong settings, too shy.. all of the above. Kicking myself often. So many wasted opportunities.
Cringing at the memory of yet another food related meltdown. There were even tears. I have only had a couple of complete meltdowns on this jungle island. One memorable one was internet related, all others have been due to the complete lack of fresh fruit/veg and healthy eating options. Oh, and there was this other time a gecko fell on my head, and I had a bit of a girly moment, but I was home alone – nobody else was there to witness it, so I don’t believe that should be counted. Feeling amazed at the difference a week can make. My wounds have all but healed, infection was avoided and once again I am experiencing a relatively pain free existence. Not being in constant pain makes everything ok. You really don’t appreciate that fact until you find yourself living with pain every day. It wears you down. Sparing a thought for people who suffer chronic, relentless physical pain around the clock.
Seeing all that is wonderful in nature. There is so much beauty all around us. Look up, look all around you and breathe it in. Life is beautiful. Collecting beach ‘treasure’ despite the fact that Lenny the maid made it quite obvious that she doesn’t consider it ‘treasure’. On Friday, she bundled it all into bags and put it outside. As soon as she was gone, I brought it straight back in, feeling awkwardly like one of the Bobolas family. (Google them). I plan to blow her away with some mixed media creations in the near future, but until then I need to find a hiding place for my ‘treasure’. Noticing my improvement in the swimming pool. I’ve never been big on swimming. It’s not that I can’t swim – I can. It’s more about some of the feelings that surface when I’m doing laps in a pool. I had a teacher in primary school who thought that throwing small children (who weren’t confident in the water), into the deep end of the pool was a good idea. I remember too well that feeling of panic in the water. I remember being completely exhausted, inhaling water, and reaching up for the edge of the pool, only to have my little hands crushed purposefully under the shoes of this nasty teacher.
There is a 25m pool just a short walk away from our house, and when we arrived here I decided it was time to try and change the way I feel about swimming. I’ve been swimming 1km every time I visit the pool. I started off doing 90% breastroke as I’d find myself exhausted quickly doing freestyle, and the same feelings that I once experienced as a child would start to surface. I’ve been building up my freestyle laps every session, and now I can alternate with one lap of breastroke to the deep end, and freestyle back to the shallow end. Never the other way around. Since my first attempt, I’ve cut 18 minutes off of my time. My last time was 27 minutes. My goal is 20 minutes, freestyle all the way. Attending my first ANZAC dawn service. Early mornings are really not my thing. In fact, concerned that I would miss the occasion altogether, I lay awake the whole night in anticipation of moment my alarm would go off. The service was up on a hill near the port. I loved arriving under the stars, and watching the first light of dawn spread over the surrounding hills. It was a beautiful service however I could barely keep my eyes open throughout, and I was thankful for a hot breakfast and coffee as soon as it was finished. Learning that caffeine is not a good idea. I thought I had already learned this lesson, but it seems I needed reminding again. I am somewhat sensitive to caffeine, and unfortunately for me, I chose to ignore that fact whilst I indulged in an early morning coffee at the dawn service breakfast. Caffeine makes my heart race, my hands shake, and even a beverage seemingly harmless as a green tea has been known to keep me awake for days at a time. After I returned home from the service, I found myself in quite the caffeine-induced coma. I really wanted to paint some poppies, being the 25th of April and all, but with hands that were shaking uncontrollably – the results were a little abstract. Looking forward to escaping this island next weekend. We’re only hopping across to Bail for a few nights, but I cannot wait to catch that seaplane out of here. I can’t remember the last time Barry has had a full, uninterrupted day off of work and I’m looking forward to having 4 whole days away with him. Ok let’s be honest, I can’t WAIT to go SHOPPING!